It's kinda weird. I met this girl named Rachel a few years ago. She was someone whom I thought would be someone amazing to date. we went out a few times and everything was going good. She suprised me and bought me a 10 day subscription to World of Warcraft. We played together for a few days and her ex decided he wanted to be with her again. So I lost out on Rachel. But her gift was fun so I bought the full game with the two expansions and started playing.
I played alone for a few more weeks and somehow ended up in a guild (a group of players who hook up to play parts of the game that cant be done alone). In this guild was a young girl named Sara. She was the one who brought me in to the guild. We ended up becoming friends. At one point she did something really nice for one of my birthdays because I was feeling really alone. She has her issues, like most of us. The reason I am bring up this is because tonight when I tried to chat with her, she set me on ignore.
It hurts to have someone whom your played with and talked to for a few years diss you like she did. There, I just wanted to vent a little. Anyway, I'll write more this weekend.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Hacked
Well, I've been playing World of Warcraft for a few years now and I just got hacked again. I'm pissed because they cleaned me out and now I have to wait until my account has been reset to go on. I broke down and bought a security device so now I have to use it to play. I'm very sad and pissed.
Sometimes I dont know
Hi all. Sorry for the delay in getting this out. It's been a very difficult time for me recently. Still, I chug along. I'll write more tonight after I finish all my work chores and have a chance to orgainze my thoughts.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
something a friend posted
Hi there-
My friend Chitra has a friend who wrote a special poem/story. I want to repost it here:
Lessons in Love................. By Roy Nwaisser
A ninety-one year old woman died after living a long dignified life. When she met God she asked him something that had long bothered her. If Man was created in God's image, and if all men are created equal, why do people treat each other so badly?
God replied that each person who enters our life has a unique lesson to teach us. And it is only through these lessons that we learn about life, people, relationships and God. This confused the woman, so God began to explain.
When someone lies to you it teaches you that things are not always as they seem. The truth is often far beneath the surface. Look beyond the masks people wear if you want to know their heart. And remove your own masks to let people know yours.
When someone steals from you it teaches you that nothing is forever. Always appreciate what you have, for you never know when you might lose it. And never, ever take your friends and family for granted because today is the only guarantee you have.
When someone inflicts an injury upon you it teaches you that the human state is a fragile one. Protect and take care of your body as best you can, it's the only thing you are sure to have forever.
When someone mocks you it teaches you that no two people are alike. When you encounter people who are different from you, don't judge them by how they look or act; instead base your opinion on the contents of their heart.
When someone breaks your heart it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that person will love you back. But don't turn your back on love because when you find the right person, the joy that one person brings will make up for all the past hurts put together. Times ten.
When someone holds a grudge against you it teaches you that everyone makes mistakes. When you are wronged, the most virtuous thing you can do is forgive the offender without pretense. Forgiving those who have hurt us is the most difficult and courageous thing Man can do.
When a loved one is unfaithful to you it teaches you that resisting temptation is Man's greatest challenge. Be vigilant in your resistance against all temptation. By doing so you will be rewarded with an enduring sense of satisfaction far greater than the temporary pleasure by which you were tempted.
When someone cheats you, it teaches you that greed is the root of all evil. Aspire to make your dreams come true, no matter how lofty they may be. Do not feel guilty about your success, but never let an obsession with achieving your goals lead you to engage in malevolent activities.
When someone ridicules you it teaches you that nobody is perfect. Accept people for their merits and be tolerant of their flaws. Do not ever reject someone for imperfections over which they have no control.
Upon hearing the Lord's wisdom, the old woman became concerned that there were no lessons to be learned from Man's good deeds.
God replied that Man's capacity to love is the greatest gift he has. At the root of all kindness is love, and each act of love also teaches us a lesson.
The woman's curiosity deepening, God once again began to explain.
When someone loves us it teaches us that love, kindness, charity, honesty, humility, forgiveness and acceptance can counteract all the evil in the world. For every good deed, there is one less evil deed. Man alone has the power to control the balance between good and evil, but because the lessons of love are not taught often enough, the power is too often abused.
When you enter someone's life, whether by plan, chance or coincidence, consider what your lesson will be. Will you teach love or a harsh lesson of reality? When you die will your life have resulted in more loving or hurting? More comfort or pain? More joy or sadness?
Each one of us has power over the balance of love in the world. Use it wisely. Don't miss an opportunity to nudge the world's scale in the right direction. Pass this lesson of love on to those you love and to those you have hurt. For each person who receives this, there will be a little less evil in the world and a little more love.
About the Author (Roy Nwaisser) :
I went through a difficult period in the latter half of 2000. It felt like an endless string of one bad thing after another was happening to me. Much of the pain was caused by people who did things with no regard for the impact their actions would have on me. As I reflected on why people do things to hurt one another, I wrote this essay trying to find some good in all the bad.
I was initially reluctant to share the story because it's very personal. In fact, the 91 year old woman is my grandmother who had recently passed away. I eventually found the courage to let a few friends see the story and they liked it (or so they said - as good friends are apt to do). Some of them even encouraged me to share it with others. So here it is in hope that it might touch, inspire, encourage or enlighten just a few people in the world.
Just something to think about.
My friend Chitra has a friend who wrote a special poem/story. I want to repost it here:
Lessons in Love................. By Roy Nwaisser
A ninety-one year old woman died after living a long dignified life. When she met God she asked him something that had long bothered her. If Man was created in God's image, and if all men are created equal, why do people treat each other so badly?
God replied that each person who enters our life has a unique lesson to teach us. And it is only through these lessons that we learn about life, people, relationships and God. This confused the woman, so God began to explain.
When someone lies to you it teaches you that things are not always as they seem. The truth is often far beneath the surface. Look beyond the masks people wear if you want to know their heart. And remove your own masks to let people know yours.
When someone steals from you it teaches you that nothing is forever. Always appreciate what you have, for you never know when you might lose it. And never, ever take your friends and family for granted because today is the only guarantee you have.
When someone inflicts an injury upon you it teaches you that the human state is a fragile one. Protect and take care of your body as best you can, it's the only thing you are sure to have forever.
When someone mocks you it teaches you that no two people are alike. When you encounter people who are different from you, don't judge them by how they look or act; instead base your opinion on the contents of their heart.
When someone breaks your heart it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that person will love you back. But don't turn your back on love because when you find the right person, the joy that one person brings will make up for all the past hurts put together. Times ten.
When someone holds a grudge against you it teaches you that everyone makes mistakes. When you are wronged, the most virtuous thing you can do is forgive the offender without pretense. Forgiving those who have hurt us is the most difficult and courageous thing Man can do.
When a loved one is unfaithful to you it teaches you that resisting temptation is Man's greatest challenge. Be vigilant in your resistance against all temptation. By doing so you will be rewarded with an enduring sense of satisfaction far greater than the temporary pleasure by which you were tempted.
When someone cheats you, it teaches you that greed is the root of all evil. Aspire to make your dreams come true, no matter how lofty they may be. Do not feel guilty about your success, but never let an obsession with achieving your goals lead you to engage in malevolent activities.
When someone ridicules you it teaches you that nobody is perfect. Accept people for their merits and be tolerant of their flaws. Do not ever reject someone for imperfections over which they have no control.
Upon hearing the Lord's wisdom, the old woman became concerned that there were no lessons to be learned from Man's good deeds.
God replied that Man's capacity to love is the greatest gift he has. At the root of all kindness is love, and each act of love also teaches us a lesson.
The woman's curiosity deepening, God once again began to explain.
When someone loves us it teaches us that love, kindness, charity, honesty, humility, forgiveness and acceptance can counteract all the evil in the world. For every good deed, there is one less evil deed. Man alone has the power to control the balance between good and evil, but because the lessons of love are not taught often enough, the power is too often abused.
When you enter someone's life, whether by plan, chance or coincidence, consider what your lesson will be. Will you teach love or a harsh lesson of reality? When you die will your life have resulted in more loving or hurting? More comfort or pain? More joy or sadness?
Each one of us has power over the balance of love in the world. Use it wisely. Don't miss an opportunity to nudge the world's scale in the right direction. Pass this lesson of love on to those you love and to those you have hurt. For each person who receives this, there will be a little less evil in the world and a little more love.
About the Author (Roy Nwaisser) :
I went through a difficult period in the latter half of 2000. It felt like an endless string of one bad thing after another was happening to me. Much of the pain was caused by people who did things with no regard for the impact their actions would have on me. As I reflected on why people do things to hurt one another, I wrote this essay trying to find some good in all the bad.
I was initially reluctant to share the story because it's very personal. In fact, the 91 year old woman is my grandmother who had recently passed away. I eventually found the courage to let a few friends see the story and they liked it (or so they said - as good friends are apt to do). Some of them even encouraged me to share it with others. So here it is in hope that it might touch, inspire, encourage or enlighten just a few people in the world.
Just something to think about.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Where is he?
I have serious questions. I want to know why our so-called President is doing nothing while one side of the world is falling apart? I want to know why the US economy is in the crapper when the TARP money is almost 100% paid back? I want to know why the Governor of California hasn't done a thing since getting into office that makes a difference? I want to know how I'm supposed to be positive when there is more negative things happening in the world?
I want to know why people have become lazy and demand handouts. I want to know who is really in charge and controlling the world. I want to know why I'm alone. I want to know why some people hate me. I want to know what it feels like to be in love with someone who loves me back. I want to know how it feels to have a family of my own. I want to know when life is supposed to become enjoyable again. I want to know how I can stop hating myself. I want to know why I am suffering all the time. I want to know why.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings.
I want to know why people have become lazy and demand handouts. I want to know who is really in charge and controlling the world. I want to know why I'm alone. I want to know why some people hate me. I want to know what it feels like to be in love with someone who loves me back. I want to know how it feels to have a family of my own. I want to know when life is supposed to become enjoyable again. I want to know how I can stop hating myself. I want to know why I am suffering all the time. I want to know why.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings.
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