I've noticed a funny thing in my life recently. I don't quite fit in. I exist on the edge of everything. Today was my 6 year anniversary in being employed with the state. When I first started, it was all new and amazing. Now, it's old and sorta boring. Nothing seems to fit anymore. My clothes, my perceptions of the job, everything. I feel like I'm in a box of some sort and have limited access to reality or am blocked from seeing what's around me.
after my birthday last week, I thought that some things would make sense and I would be able to go out and feel better about myself. if anything, I feel more lost and alone than ever before. My dad and step mom expressed concern and worry about me and want me to get out and meet people. I agreed with them because I didnt want to fight. I keep asking myself how do I fit in with people when I dont understand them. I can talk to people about payroll taxes and business things but ask me to relate to people about normal everyday things and I am absolutely lost.
Well, I've rambled on for a while about my insecutrities a little. Let me know what you thing, if anyone is reading my thoughts.
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